Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Dang it!

we went to see the GI doctor today. It seems that we have reached the time when we are going to put the hole in landon's tummy to feed him. We are going on Tues. to do another PH probe, which measures how bad his acid reflux is, and then schedule for possibly this month, most likely next. I feel like a failure in some respect, but I know that I've done my best. I knew it was coming to this soon, but I just don't feel prepared. It looks like they will also do a surgery at the same time so that he won't be able to throw up. I hope it's reversable because WHEN (i'm being positive) the hole comes out and he can eat everything on his own, I want him to be able to burp--you can't burp with the no throw up deal. Crazy how you come to appreciate something when you're not given the opportunity.


Liz said...

"Sara" and "failure" should never be in the same sentence. EVER!

You do a fantastic job!

And although this is something that you wish wouldn't have to happen, it's just one more thing to give Landon more time to grow and heal.

You are a wonderful mother, Sara!

Rachel said...

I'm with Liz. You're fantastic and amazing. Keep us posted on the surgery.

teddi said...

I've seen lots of kids with the g-tube. I'm hoping it will make your life a little less stressful for Landon to have one at this point.

Hang in there! There really does come a time when all of this evens out :)


Wendy said...

I don't know much about these medical challenges you are facing, but we pray for you guys and little Landon everyday.

The B3 Sutters said...

Sara- we're keeping you in our prayers. you are doing such a good job. Your family is beautiful.

Honestly from a medical perspective- it is very much reversable. And many people also live very well with stomas. We are praying for your little guy!

Amanda said...

Sara- I love you!!!
You are amazing and a strength to all that know you and are watching you go through this experience. We are all blessed to call you our friend!

Ry Tam & Fam said...

Sara, Many, many times as a Mother I have felt much like I could have done more or I didn't do enough or that I didn't have enough faith or was unworthy in some way. I have at times prayed so earnestly for certain things or healing for my children and felt at fault when they were not answered in the way I wanted them to be. But it has always seemed that as time passed I have realized that the Lord is so very aware of us and is trying to help us every step of the way. But somehow in his perfect knowledge and perspective he "lets" certain things happen. It may be to help us learn something or to help our children learn something or both. Sometimes I think he is just teaching us that we are so much stronger than we thought we were. He's pretty smart! One of the hardest things for me is just letting go and completely trusting him and that he really does know what is best for us. I struggle with that consistantly as I try to do his will.

I can't imagine the stress and heartache that you are going through! Today in church I sat behind a young couple who have a little toddler with Downs Syndrome. She was a dang cute little girl. As I sat there I thought about the stresses of those parents and fears and thoughts of the future I couldn't help but say a little prayer for them and you and all those who deal with stuggles and worries of childrens health both physically and emotionally. I also thought that parents with challenges like these must have been some of the very strongest in the pre-mortal life for the Lord to trust them with these amazing strong spirits!

I hope I'm making a little sense I'm not very good at conveying my thoughts and feelings;) I'm just so glad to know you! You have always been such a wonderful example to me and always will be! For that I cannot thank you enough!

You are doing an AMAZING job! I love you Sara!

Amy said...

Just wanted to give you our blog address. I'll keep your family in our prayers. We wish you all the best and we should get together soon.